Only in Him, I find peace

I've been so caught up in "busy"-ness, in the last two weeks, even this week. Moving, interviewing, thinking, and thinking.. emotionally broken :Though many times I had only little quiet time in the morning, the peace from God is everlasting.. forever.. enduring. I can't tell it by words, this love that sustains me all the time, even every minute and hour when I'm down. Hmm... I think this psalm from David depicts it so well -- of what I feel when I'm with Him.

Psalm 23
A psalm of David.
1 The LORD is my shepherd, I shall not be in want.
2 He makes me lie down in green pastures,
he leads me beside quiet waters,
3 he restores my soul.
He guides me in paths of righteousness for his name's sake.
4 Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death,
I will fear no evil, for you are with me;
your rod and your staff, they comfort me.
5 You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies.
You anoint my head with oil; my cup overflows.
6 Surely goodness and love will follow me all the days of my life,
and I will dwell in the house of the LORD forever.

God bless you friends.. wherever you are.

祝 爸 爸 快 乐 !

(ahong nyanyi buat papa)
祝 爸 爸 生 日 快 乐 . . .
祝 爸 爸 生 日 快 乐 . . .
祝 爸 爸.. 生日.. 快乐 . . .
身 体 健 康.. 快 乐 . .

Papaa sayaaang.. papaku yang masih muda sekali seperti umur slawe sajaa :D
Iya papaku top sekali soalnya meski anak-anaknya sudah besar (bukan dewasa, tapi besar saja :D) tapi papa lebih berjiwa muda ketimbang anak-anaknya, apalagi ahong hehehe.
Selalu ahong diingatkan, didorong, didukung untuk terus maju, ga bole putus asa, ga bole loyo.
Kasian papa kesini dulu dingin-dingiiiin sekalii sampe badan terhuyung-huyung angin salju, sampe akhirnya loyo juga :\ tapi pa, tidak boleh patah semangat, lain kali boleh kesini lagi!! Nanti pigi ke tempat hangat sajaaa. Yaaaaaa? ^________^ ayooo laaaaaaaa....
Begitu besarnya semangat papa buat aling ahong, bahkan tiap hari kalo ahong ngomel capek bekerja (jarang seh), atau belajar, trus ahong inget, lho papa itu kerja seberapa payah, dan berapa taun sudahan, mana tidak botak kalo mengomel terus. Mbayangin itu saja ahong seperti makan vitamin C 2 biji masing2 1000 gram, hehehe.
Sekarang ahong super bangga sama papa. Soalnya papa banyak olahraga (ngalah-ngalahi ahong :\), bisa taichi, jikung, ping-pong, dan masih banyak lagi. Trus papa juga makan sehat sekali, ahong mau ikutan sekarang. Semoga papa selalu senang, tenang, dan sehat! ^___^
Hadiahnya.. jreng jreng jreeeeeng!!!
Biasa saja pa, sikat gigi ya. Yang lama tolong ganti ya pa nanti kalo mama suda pulang tak titipi. Sekarang papa liat modelnya dulu ini di foto :p hihihi. Apiiik lho, ahong dan cece suda pake. Ini 2 buat papa, 2 buat mama yaa!!

Wis ahong sayang papa selalu selalu selalu :)

I shouldn't

Shouldn't think about this.. shouldn't revisit this anymore :S
I've spent 1500 hours.. to calm down.. telling myself not to complain, but to unconditionally accept (well what can I do..), convincing myself that he doesn't care, indeed!
Ok, whatever.
So I.. thought I have let go. I didn't hear. I didn't see. I didn't imagine. Ok I still imagined - unfortunately - but only a little bit :p.. I need it.
Until today.

So what? You're trying to tell me that you can have all the fun in the world but never a thought of sharing it with me? I can't live with these virtual friendships, somemore from you.. someone I consider a close friend. I can't live with the notion of "tagger" following me all along. Please don't keep saying, "Please understand." -_-
I let go one. Another one. Another one. Another one. ...
"I just can't handle another disappointment." - quoted from Nick Nite show I'm currently watching :p.

I don't see how..
Make me remember that time back in high school. I was very excited about going for a trip for a farewell with my best friends. Truly I wouldn't have gone if you guys didn't keep urging me. I felt good. But still!! My bestest friend wouldn't go! (yah itu kamu Nan :p) I could tell.. even back then.. that things would have been much joyful with him around.

*sigh*
I think it's rude.. to tell me that I'm trying to tag along with you. You're not no one to me, you're my dear friend. How could you do this to me :'(
I only treasure very few special people in my life. I put my best effort to be inclusive -- holding each as tightly as I can. I thought people are grateful for the good friends they have. At least I am. Yet you dump and leave me out... Maybe I'm such a bad friend.
If, even you turn your back from me.. who else won't?